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Lessons from the Widow’s Offering: Generosity Beyond Wealth

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Monday 23rd December 2024

It was an interesting day, I certainly didn’t expect to write 35 pages for sure! It all started with the verse in Luke 21, about the poor widow giving all she had. When I look back on this now, I can see how it relates to what I’ve been doing now for over quite a few years. It also provided more clarity about tithing, why, what for etc. I used my study bible which is an NIV (New International Version) and this post brings together relevant verses, questions that arose, and footnotes surrounding this deep dive I ended up in.

Luke 21 – Verses 1 to 4 – A Poor Widow Gives All She Has

As he looked up, Jesus saw the rich putting their gifts into the temple treasury. He saw a poor widow put in two very small copper coins. “I tell you the truth” he said “this poor widow has put in more than all the others. All these people gave their gifts out of their wealth; but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on.”

FOOTNOTES – Luke 21:1,2 : Jesus was in the area of the temple called the court of women. The treasury was located there or in an adjoining walkway. In this area were seven boxes in which worshippers could deposit their ‘temple tax’ and six boxes for ‘freewill offerings’ like the one this woman gave. Not only was she poor; as a widow she had few resources for making money. Her small gift was a sacrifice but she gave it freely.

FOOTNOTES – Luke 21: 1-4 : This widow gave all she had to live on, in contrast to the way most of us handle our money. When we consider giving a certain percentage of our income a great accomplishment, we resemble those who gave “out of their wealth”. Here, Jesus was admiring generous and sacrificial giving – whether of money, time or talents – to a point beyond convenience or safety.

This is also a verse in Mark…

Mark 12 – Verses 41 to 44 – A Poor Widow Gives All She Has

Jesus sat down opposite where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Money rich people threw in large amounts. But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a fraction of a penny.

Calling his disciples to him Jesus said “I tell you the truth, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything – all she had to live on.”

FOOTNOTES Mark 12: 41-44 : In the Lord’s eyes, this poor widow gave more than all the others put together, though her gift was by far the smallest. The value of the gift is not determined by it’s amount, but by the spirit in which it is given. A gift given grudgingly or for recognition loses it’s value. When you give, remember – gifts of any size are pleasing to God when they are given out of gratitude and a spirit of generosity.

Question: What was the temple tax?

Found in John 2:14

In the temple courts he (Jesus) found men selling cattle, sheep and doves, and others sitting at tables exchanging money.

FOOTNOTES John 2:14 – The temple area was always crowded during Passover with thousands of out-of-town visitors. The religious leaders crowded it even further by allowing money changers and merchants to setup booths in the court of the Gentiles. They rationalised (explained/justified) this practice as convenience for the worshippers and as a way to make money for the temple upkeep. But the religious leaders did not seem to care that the court of the Gentiles was so full of merchants that foreigners found it difficult to worship. and worship was the main purpose for visiting the temple. No wonder Jesus was angry!

FOOTNOTES John 2:14 – The temple tax had to be paid in local currency, so foreigners had to have their money changed. But the money changers often would charge exorbitant (unreasonably high charge) exchange rates. The people were also required to make sacrifices for sins. Because of the long journey, many could not bring their own animals. Some who brought animals would have them rejected for imperfections. So animal merchants would do a flourishing business in the temple courtyard. The price of sacrificial animals was much higher in the temple area. Jesus was angry at the dishonest, greedy practices of the money changers and merchants, and he particularly disliked their presence in the temple grounds. They were making a mockery of God’s house of worship.

FOOTNOTES John 2:14ff – John records his first clearing, or cleansing of the temple. A second clearing occurred at the end of Jesus’ ministry, about 3 years later, that event is recorded in

  • Matthew 21: Verses 12-17
  • Mark 11: Verses 12-19
  • Luke 19: Verses 45-48

John 2: 15 – So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple area, both sheep and cattle, he scattered the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables. To those who sold doves he said “Get out of here! How dare you turn my Father’s house into a market!”

His disciples remembered that it is written “Zeal for your house will consume me.”

Then the Jews demanded of him, “What miraculous sign can you show us to prove your authority to do this?”

Jesus answered them “Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days.”

The Jews replied “It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?” But the temple he had spoken of was his body.

After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what he had said. Then they believed the Scripture and the words that Jesus had spoken.

Now while he was in Jerusalem at the Passover Feast, many people saw the miraculous signs he was doing and believed in his name. But Jesus would not entrust himself to them, for he knew all men, for he knew what was in a man.

FOOTNOTES – John 2:14-16 – God’s temple was being misused by people who had turned it into a marketplace. They had forgotten, or didn’t care, that God’s house is a place of worship, not a place for making profit. Our attitude towards the church is wrong if we see it as a place for personal contacts or business advantage. Make sure you attend church to worship God.

FOOTNOTES – John 2: 15, 16 – Jesus was obviously angry at the merchants who exploited those who had come to God’s house to worship. There is a difference between uncontrolled rage and righteous indignation (anger which is motivated by perception of injustice or moral lapse) yet both are called anger. We must be careful how we use the powerful emotion of anger. It is right to be angry about injustice and sin; it is wrong to be angry over trivial personal offences.

FOOTNOTES – John 2: 15, 16 – Jesus made a whip and chased out the money changers. Does his example permit us to use violence against wrongdoers? Certain authority is granted to some, but not all. For example, the authority to use weapons and restrain people is granted to police officers, but not to the general public. The authority to imprison people is granted to judges, but not to individual citizens. Jesus had God’s authority, something we cannot have. While we want to live like Christ, we should never try to claim his authority where it has not been given to us.

My question is… but what happens if the people granted authority abuse their position?

FOOTNOTES – John 2: 17 – Jesus took the evil acts in the temple as an insult against God, and thus he did not deal with them half heartedly. He was consumed with righteous anger against such flagrant (wrong/immoral/obviously offensive) disrespect to God.

FOOTNOTES – John 2: 19, 20 – The Jews understood Jesus to mean the temple out of which he had just driven the merchants and the money changers. This was the temple Zerubbabel had been built 500 years earlier, but Herod the Great had begun remodelling it, making it much larger and far more beautiful. It had been 46 years since this remodelling had started (20 B.C) and it still wasn’t completely finished. They understood Jesus’ words to mean that this imposing building could be torn down and rebuilt in three days, and they were startled.

FOOTNOTES – John 2: 21, 22 – Jesus was not talking about the temple made of stones, but about his body. His listeners didn’t realise it, but Jesus was greater than the temple. (See Matthew 12:6 – “Warning them not to tell who he was.” Jesus did not want those he healed to tell others about his miracles because he didn’t want the people coming to him for the wrong reasons. That would hinder his teaching ministry and arouse false hopes about an earthly kingdom. But the news of Jesus’ miracles spread, and many came to see for themselves.)

FOOTNOTES – John 2: 21,22 – His (Jesus’) words would take on meaning for his disciples after his resurrection. That Christ so perfectly fulfilled this prediction became the strongest proof for his claims to be God.

FOOTNOTES – John 2: 23-25 – The Son of God knows all about human nature. Jesus was well aware of the truth of Jeremiah 17:9 which states “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” Jesus was discerning, and he knew that the faith of some followers was superficial (not thorough/deep/complete). Some of the same people claiming to believe in Jesus at this time would later yell “Crucify him!” It’s easy to believe when it is exciting and everyone else believes the same way. But keep your faith firm, even when it isn’t popular to follow Christ.

Question: What was the temple treasury?

John 8:20 – He (Jesus) spoke these words while teaching in the temple area near the place where the offerings were put. Yet no one seized him, because his time had not yet come.

FOOTNOTES John 8:20 – The temple treasury was located in the court of women. In this area 13 collection boxes were setup to receive money offerings.

  • 7 of the boxes were for temple tax
  • 6 of the boxes were for freewill offerings

On another occasion, a widow placed her money in one of these boxes, and Jesus taught a profound lesson from her action (Luke 21: 1-4).

Question: So what is tithing that churches ask for?

Purpose and Principles of tithing can be found in

  • Deuteronomy 14: 22-23
  • 2 Corinthians 8: 10-15

Deuteronomy 14: 22-23

Be sure to set aside a tenth of all that your fields produce each year. Eat the tithe of your grain, new wine and oil, and the firstborn of your herds and flocks in the presence of the LORD your God at the place he will choose as a dwelling for his name, so that you may learn to revere the LORD your God always.

FOOTNOTES – Deuteronomy 14: 22, 23 – The bible makes the purpose of tithing very clear – to put God first in our lives. We are to give God the first and best of what we earn. For example, what we do first with our money shows what we value most. Giving the first part of our pay cheque to God immediately focuses our attention on him. It also reminds us that all we have belongs to him. A habit of regular tithing can keep God at the top of our priority list, and give us a proper perspective on everything else we have.

2 Corinthians 8: 10-15

And here is my advice about what is best for you in this matter. Last year you were the first not only to give but also to have the desire to do so. “Now finish the work, so that your eager willingness to do it may be matched by your completion of it, according to your means. For if the willingness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what he does not have.

Our desire is not that others might be relieved while you are hard pressed, but that there might be equality. At the present time your plenty will supply what they need so that in turn their plenty will supply what you need. Then there will be equality, as it is written: “He who gathered much did not have too much, and he who gathered little did not have too little.”

FOOTNOTES: 2 Corinthians 8: 10-15

The Corinthian Church had money, and apparently they had planned to collect money for the Jerusalem churches a year previously (see also 2 Corinthians 9:2 “For I know your eagerness to help, and I have been boasting about it to the Macedonians, telling them that since last year you in Achaia were ready to give; and your enthusiasm has stirred most of them to action.)

Paul challenges them to act on their plans. Four principles of giving emerge here:

  1. Your willingness to give cheerfully is more important than the amount you give.
  2. You should strive to fulfil your financial commitments
  3. If you give to others in need, they will, in turn, help you when you are in need
  4. You should give as a response to Christ, not for anything you can get out of it. How you give reflects on your devotion to Christ.

FOOTNOTES – 2 Corinthians 8:12 – How do you decide how much to give? What about differences in the financial resources Christians have? Paul gives the Corinthian church several principles to follow:

  1. Each person should follow through on previous promises (2 Corinthians 8:10, 11 and 2 Corinthians 9:3 “But I am sending the brothers in order that our boasting about you in this matter should not prove hollow, but that you may be ready, as i said you would be.) + FOOTNOTES 9:3-5 Paul reminded the Corinthians to fulfil the commitment that they had already made (2 Corinthians 8:10-12) They had said that they would collect a financial gift to send to the church in Jerusalem. Paul was sending a few men ahead of him to make sure their gift was ready, so it would be a real gift and not look like people had to give under pressure at the last minute. (“ready as a generous gift, not as one grudgingly given.”) He was holding them accountable to keep their promise, so that neither Paul nor the Corinthians would be embarrassed.)
  2. Each person should give as much as he/she is able (2 Corinthians 8:12 and 2 Corinthians 9:6 “Remember this; Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will reap generously.” FOOTNOTES 9:6 People may hesitate to give generously to God if they worry about having enough money left over to meet their own needs. Paul assured the Corinthians that God was able to meet their needs. The person who gives only a little will receive only a little in return. Don’t let lack of faith keep you from giving freely and generously.)
  3. Each person must make up his/her own mind how much to give (2 Corinthians 9:7 “Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. FOOTNOTES 9:7 – Our attitude when we give is more important than the amount we give. We don’t have to be embarrassed if we can give only a small gift. God is concerned about how we give from the resources we have. (See Mark 12:41-44) According to that standard the giving of the Macedonian churches would be difficult to match. (2 Corinthians 8:3 “For I testify that they gave as much as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely on their own.)
  4. Each person should give in proportion to what God has given him/her. (2 Corinthians 9:10 “Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness” 9:10 FOOTNOTES God gives us resources to use and invest for him. Paul uses the illustration of seed to explain that the resources God gives us are not to be hidden, foolishly devoured (quickly or hungrily ate) or thrown away. Instead they should be cultivated (refined/well educated) in order to produce more crops. When we invest what God has given us in his work, he will provide us with even more to give in his service.)

God gives to us, so that we can give to others

Question: What is/was a freewill offering?

The freewill (or free will) offering was a sacrifice regulated by God’s standards in Mosaic Law, but it was completely voluntary. (Leviticus 23:38 “These offerings are in addition to those for the LORD’s Sabbaths and in addition to your gifts and whatever you have vowed and all the freewill offerings you give to the LORD”).

In the law, the freewill offering was to include flour mixed with oil and wine; the amounts varied on whether the sacrifice was a lamb, bull or ram (Numbers 14:1-10)

In the law, the free will offering was to be of a male bull, sheep or goat with no physical deformaties or blemishes, and it was not to have been purchased from a foreigner. (Leviticus 22:17-25 – Unacceptable sacrifices “The LORD said to Moses “Speak to Aaron and his sons and to all the Israelites and say to them: If any of you – either an Israelite or an alien living in Israel – presents a gift for a burnt offering to the LORD, either to fulfil a vow or as a free will offering, you must present a male without defect from the cattle, sheep or goats in order that it may be accepted on your behalf. Do not bring anything with a defect, because it will not be accepted on your behalf.

When anyone brings form the herd or flock a fellowship offering to the LORD to fulfil a special vow or as a freewill offering, it must be without defect or blemish to be acceptable. Do not offer to the LORD the blind, the injured or the maimed, or anything with warts or festering or running sores. Do not place any of these on the altar as an offering made to the LORD by fire. You may however present as a freewill offering an ox or sheep that is deformed or stunted but it will not be accepted in fulfilment of a vow. You must not offer to the LORD an animal whose testicles are bruised, crushed, torn or cut. You must not do this on your own land and you must not accept such animals from the hand of a foreigner and offer them as the food from your God. They will not be accepted on your behalf, because they are deformed and have defects.)

FOOTNOTES: Leviticus 21-16-23 – Was God unfairly discriminating against handicapped people when he said they were unqualified to offer sacrifices? Just as God demanded no imperfect animals be used for sacrifice, he required that no handicapped priests offer sacrifices. This was not meant as an insult; rather it had to do with the fact that the priest must match as closely as possible the perfect God he served. Of course, such perfection was not fully realised until Jesus Christ came. As Levites, the handicapped priests were protected and supported with food from the sacrifices. They were not abandoned because they still performed many essential services within the tabernacle.

FOOTNOTES: Leviticus 22:1-9 – Why were there so many specific guidelines for the priests? The Israelites would have been quite familiar with priests from Egypt. Egyptian priests were mainly interested in politics. They viewed religion as a way to gain power. Thus, the Israelites would have been suspicious of the establishment of a new priestly order. But God wanted his priests to serve him and the people. Their duties were religious – to help people draw near to God and worship him. They could not use their position to gain power because they were not allowed to own land, or take money from anyone. All these guidelines reassured the people and helped the priests accomplish their purpose.

FOOTNOTES: Leviticus 22: 19-25 – Animals with defects were not acceptable as sacrifices because they did not represent God’s holy nature. Furthermore, the animal had to be without blemish in order to foreshadow (a warning or indication of a future event)) the perfect sinless life of Jesus Christ.

When we give our best time, talent and treasures to God rather than what is tarnished or common, we show the true meaning of worship and testify God’s supreme worth. (Numbers 15:1-10 – “The Lord said to Moses “Speak to the Israelites and say to them ‘After you enter the land I am giving you a home and you present to the LORD offerings made by fire, from the herd or the flock, as an aroma pleasing to the LORD – whether burnt offerings or sacrifices, for special vows or freewill offerings, or festival offerings – then the one who brings his offering shall present to the LORD a grain offering of a tenth of an ephah of fine flour mixed (A Hebrew dry measure equivalent to a bath (of about 40 litres or 9 gallons (6.1 US Gallons) Mass = 3.5 – 3.9 pounds) Or 10 x the size of an omer (An omer in manna was enough to feed someone for a day) so if it was in barley approximately 10 days worth of food) with a quarter of a hin of oil (approximately 1.5 gallons (US) 5.7 litres / 1/6 or 1/7 of a bath (9 gallons). With each lamb for the burnt offering or the sacrifice, prepare a quarter of a hin of wine as a drink offering.

“With a ram prepare a grain offering of 2/10 of an ephah of fine flour mixed with a third of a hin of oil, and a third of a hin of wine as a drink offering. Offer it as an aroma pleasing to the LORD. (An aroma pleasing to the LORD means that God would be pleased with their sacrifice).

“‘When you prepare a young bull as a burnt offering or sacrifice , for a special vow or a fellowship offering to the LORD, bring with the bull a grain offering of three tenths of an ephah of fine flour mixed with half a hin of oil. Also bring half a hin of wine as a drink offering. It will be an offering made by fire, and aroma pleasing to the LORD. Each bull or ram, each lamb or young goat, is to be prepared in this manner. Do this for each one, for as many as you prepare.

As with all sacrifices, the freewill offering was to be made in a place of God’s choosing, not in an area formally used by other religions or at home (Deuteronomy 12). Although it was appropriate to give the sacrifice during formal feast-days, it could be given any time (Deuteronomy 16:10). Unlike other offerings governed by stricter rules, the priests could eat the free will offering on the day it was sacrificed or the day after (Leviticus 7:16-18).

Free will offerings did not always have to be animals or grain and drink offerings. The first time a free will offering is mentioned in the Bible is in Exodus 35:10-29. God had given instructions on how to build the tabernacle, and Moses relayed what supplies were needed for the construction. People responded as their hearts stirred them, bringing jewellery, fine yarn, tanned skins, silver, bronze, acacia wood, onyx stones, spices and oil. These were all donated as free will offerings to the LORD. (Exodus 35:29).

Centuries later, the people made similar offerings for David to pass on to Solomon to build the temple (1 Chronicles 29:6-9). In the book of Ezra, the people gave traditional animal offerings (Ezra 3:5) as well as supplies to rebuild the temple after the Babylonian captivity. (Ezra 2:68, Ezra 7:16, Ezra 8:29)

The people also made animal offerings in 2 Chronicles 31, when King Hezekiah led the nation in returning to God and reinstituting his ceremonies.

In Ezekiel 46:12 free will offerings are mentioned as being offered in the millennial kingdom (The 1000-year reign of Jesus Christ on the earth. Mentioned six times in Revelation 20:2-7 – Also referred to as a long period of time).

Whether it was sacrifice of animals, or supplies donated for a place of worship, the free will offering was to be given freely as the Lord moved the Israelites hearts. It was not to be used as prestige (Amos 4:5) or because of guilt, inducement or force.

Today, the free will offering is the only offering we have. There is no tithe demanded on the church. We rely on the sacrifice of Jesus (not animals) for our atonement. All the money, time and resources we give are to be freely given, as the Spirit leads. The trick being when we notice and obey ‘when the Spirit leads’. God has given us everything we have; if He moves our hearts (Exodus 35:29) then we should cheerfully give (2 Corinthians 9:7).

Today, the free will offering is the only offering we have. There is no tithe demanded on the church. We rely on the sacrifice of Jesus (not animals) for our atonement. All the money, time and resources we give are to be freely given, as the Spirit leads.

Question: Why do we rely on the sacrifice of Jesus now, and no longer animals? When did we stop offering animals?

Verses that cover this are in:

  1. Luke 22: Verses 14-30
  2. Matthew 26: Verses 20-30
  3. Mark 14: Verses 17-26
  4. John 13: Verses 21-30

Luke 22: Verses 14-30 – Jesus and the disciples have the last supper

When the hour came, Jesus and his apostles reclined at the table. And he said to them “I have eagerly desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer. For I tell you, I will not eat it again until it finds fulfilment in the kingdom of God. ” After taking the cup, he gave thanks and said “Take this and divide it among you. For I tell you I will not drink again of the fruit of the vine until the kingdom of God comes.”

And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them saying “This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.” In the same way, after the supper he took the cup saying “This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you. But the hand of him who is going to betray me is with mine on the table. The Son of Man will go as it has been decreed, but woe to that man who betrays him.” They began to question among themselves which of them it might be who would do this.

FOOTNOTES: Luke 22: 20 – In Old Testament times, God agreed to forgive people’s sins if they brought animals for the priests to sacrifice. When this sacrificial system was inaugurated (began or introduced as system/policy/period) the agreement between God and man was sealed with the blood of animals (Exodus 24:8). But animal blood did not in itself remove sin (only God can forgive sin) and animal sacrifices had to be repeated day by day and year after year.

Jesus instituted a “new covenant” or agreement between humans and God. Under this new covenant, Jesus would die in the place of sinners. Unlike the blood of animals, his blood (because he is God) would truly remove the sins of all who put their faith in Him. And Jesus’ sacrifice would never have to be repeated, it would be good for all eternity.

(Hebrews 9:23-28 – It was necessary, then, for the copies of the heavenly things to be purified with these sacrifices, but the heavenly things themselves with better sacrifices than these. For Christ did not enter a man-made sanctuary that was only a copy of the true one; he entered heaven itself, now to appear for us in God’s presence. Nor did he enter heaven to offer himself again and again, the way the High Priest enters the Most Holy Place every year with blood that is not his own. Then Christ would have had to suffer many times since the creation of the world. But now he has appeared once for all at the end of the ages to do away with sin by sacrifice of himself. Just as man is destined to die once, and after that to face judgement, so Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.)

FOOTNOTES: Luke 22-20 cont. – The prophets looked forward to this new covenant that would fulfil the old sacrificial agreement (Jeremiah 31: 31-34 “The time is coming” declares the lord “when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel and with the house of Judah. It will not be like the covenant I made with their forefathers when I took them out of Egypt, because they broke my covenant though I was a husband to them” declares the LORD. “This is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after that time” declares the LORD. “I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people. No longer will a man teach his neighbour, or a man his brother, saying ‘Know the Lord,’ because they will all know me, from the least of them to the greatest” declares the LORD. “For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more”)

FOOTNOTES: Jeremiah 31:33 – God would write his law on their hearts rather than tablets of stone, as he did the Ten Commandments. In Jeremiah 17:1 their sin was engraved on their hearts so that they wanted above all to disobey. This change seems to describe an experience very much like the new birth, with God taking the initiative. When we turn our lives over to God, he, by his Holy Spirit, builds into us the desire to obey.

FOOTNOTES: Jeremiah 31:33 – The Old Covenant, broken by the people, would be replaced by a new covenant. The foundation of this new covenant is Christ (Hebrews 8:6 But the ministry Jesus has received is as superior to theirs as the covenant of which his is mediator is superior to the old one, and is founded on better promises. )

FOOTNOTES: Luke 22:20 (cont.) – and John the Baptist called Jesus “The Lamb Of God, who takes away the sin of the world.” (John 1:29 – John the Baptist proclaimed Jesus as the Messiah. The next day John saw Jesus coming towards him and said “Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world.

FOOTNOTES John 1:29 – Every morning and evening, a lamb was sacrificed in the temple for the sins of the people (Exodus 29: 38-42) Isaiah 53:7 prophesied that the Messiah, God’s servant, would be led to the slaughter like a lamb. To pay the penalty for sin, a life had to be given – and God chose to provide the sacrifice himself. The sins of the world were removed when Jesus died as the perfect sacrifice.

This is the way our sins are forgiven (1 Corinthians 5:7 – Get rid of the old yeast that you may be a new batch without yeast – as you really are. For Christ, our Passover lamb, has been sacrificed). The sin of the world means everyone’s sin, the sin of each individual. Jesus paid the price of your sin by his death. You can receive forgiveness by confessing your sin to him and asking for his forgiveness).

FOOTNOTES: Luke 22:21 – From the accounts of Mark and John we know that the betrayer was Judas Iscariot. Although the other disciples were confused by Jesus’ words. Judas knew what he meant.

Matthew 26: Verses 20-30 – Jesus and the disciples have the last supper

When evening came, Jesus was reclining at the table with the Twelve. And while they were eating he said “I tell you the truth, one of you will betray me. ” They were very sad and began to say to him one after the other “Surely not I, Lord?” Jesus replied “The one who has dipped his hand into the bowl with me will betray me. The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him. But woe to that man who betrays the Son of Man! It would be better for him if he had not been born. ” (FOOTNOTES: Matthew 26:23 – In Jesus’ time, some food was eaten from a common bowl into which everyone dipped their hand.) Then Judas, the one who would betray him, said “Surely not I, Rabbi?” Jesus answered “Yes it is you”

While they were eating, Jesus took the bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to his disciples, saying “Take and eat; this is my body.” Then he took the cup, gave thanks and offered it to them, saying “Drink from it, all of you. This is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. I tell you, I will not drink of this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it anew with you in my Father’s kingdom.” When they had sang a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.

(FOOTNOTES: Matthew 26:26 – Each name we use for this sacrament (religious ceremony or ritual) brings out a different dimension to it.

  • It is the Lord’s supper because it commemorates (recalls/shows respect) for the Passover meal Jesus ate with his disciples.
  • It is the Eucharist (thanksgiving) because in it we thank God for Christ’s work in us.
  • It is Communion because through it we commune (share intimate thoughts and feelings on a spiritual level) with God and the other believers.
  • As we eat the bread and drink the wine, we should be quietly reflective as we recall Jesus’ death and his promises to come again, grateful for God’s wonderful gift to us, and joyful as we meet with Christ and other believers.

FOOTNOTES: Matthew 26: 28 – How does Jesus’ blood relate to the new covenant? People under the old covenant (those who lived before Jesus) could approach God only through a priest and an animal sacrifice. Now all people can come to God directly through faith because Jesus’ death has made us acceptable in God’s eyes.

(Romans 3:21-24 – Forgiveness of sin through Christ. But now a righteousness from God, apart from law, has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement, through faith in his blood. He did this to demonstrate his justice because in his forbearance he had left the sins beforehand unpunished – he did it to demonstrate his justice at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus.

Where then is boasting? It is excluded. On what principle? On that of observing the law? No, but on that of faith. For we maintain that a man is justified by faith apart from observing the law. Is God the God of Jews only? yes, of Gentiles too, since there is only one God, who will justify the circumcised by faith and the uncircumcised through the same faith. Do we then, nullify the law through this faith? Not at all! Rather we uphold the law.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3: 20, 31 – In these verses we see two functions of God’s law. First it shows us where we go wrong. Because of the law we know that we are helpless sinners and that we must come to Jesus Christ for mercy. Secondly, the moral code revealed in the law can serve to guide our actions by holding up God’s moral standards.

We do not earn salvation by keeping the law (No-one except Christ ever kept or could keep God’s law perfectly) but we do please God when our lives conform to his revealed will for us.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:21-29 – After all this bad news about our sinfulness and God’s condemnation Paul gives the wonderful news. There is a way to be declared not guilty – by trusting Jesus Christ to take away our sins. Trusting means putting our confidence in Christ to forgive our sins, to make us right with God, and to empower us to live the way he taught us. God’s solution is available to us all, regardless of our background or past behaviour.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:24 – Justified means to be declared not guilty. When a judge in a court of law declares the defendant not guilty, all charges are removed from his record. Legally, it’s as if the person had never been accused. When God forgives our sins, our record is wiped clean. From his perspective, it is as though we had never sinned.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:24 – Redemption refers to Christ setting sinners free from slavery to sin. In Old Testament times, a person’s debts could result in his being sold as a slave. The next of kin could redeem him – buy his freedom. Christ purchased our freedom and the price was his life.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:25 – Christ is our sacrifice of atonement. In other words he died in our place, for our sins. God is justifiably angry at sinners. They have rebelled against him and cut themselves off from his life-giving power. But God declares Christ’s death to be the appropriate, designated sacrifice for our sin. Christ then stands in our place, having paid the penalty of death for our sin, and he completely satisfies God’s demands. His sacrifice brings pardon, deliverance and freedom.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:25 – What happened to people who lived before Christ came and died for sin? If God condemned them was he being unfair? If he saved them, was Christ’s sacrifice unnecessary? Paul shows that God forgave all human sin at the cross of Jesus. Old Testament believers looked forward in faith to Christ’s coming and were saved, even though they did not know Jesus’ name or the details of his earthly life. Unlike the Old Testament believers, you know about the God who loved the world so much that he gave his own Son (John 3:16) Have you put your trust in him?

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:27,28 – Most religions prescribe duties that must be performed to make a person acceptable to a god. Christianity is unique in teaching that good deeds we do will not make us right with God. No amount of human achievement or progress in personal development will close the gap between God’s moral perfection and our imperfect daily performance. Good deeds are important, but they will not earn us eternal life. We are saved only by what God has done for us. (See Ephesians 2:8-10 – For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves it is the gift of God – not by works, so that no-one can boast. For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus, to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do).

FOOTNOTES: Ephesians 2: 8, 9 – When someone gives you a gift do you say “That’s very nice, how much do I owe you?” ? No, the appropriate response to a gift is “Thank you” yet how often Christians, even after being given the gift of salvation, feel obliged to try to work their way to God? Because our salvation, and even our faith, are gifts, we should respond with gratitude, praise and joy.

FOOTNOTES: Ephesians 2: 8-10 – We become Christians through God’s unmerited grace, not as the result of any effort, ability, intelligent choice, or act of sacrifice on our part. However, out of gratitude for this free gift, we will seek to help others with kindness, love, and gentleness, and not merely to please ourselves. While no action or work we do can help us to obtain salvation, God’s intention is that our salvation will result in acts of service. We are not saved merely for our own benefit but to serve Christ and build up the church (Ephesians 4:12).

FOOTNOTES: Ephesians 2:10 – We are God’s workmanship (work of art, masterpiece). Our salvation is something only God can do. It is his powerful, creative work in us. If God considers us his work of art, we dare not treat ourselves, or others, with disrespect or as inferior work.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:28 – Why does God save us by faith alone?

  1. Faith eliminates the pride of human effort, because faith is not a deed that we can do.
  2. Faith exalts what God has done, not what people do.
  3. Faith admits that we can’t keep the law – or measure up to God’s standards. We need help.
  4. Faith is based on our relationship with God, not our performance for God.

FOOTNOTES: Romans 3:31 – There are some misunderstandings between the Jewish and Gentile Christians in Rome. Worried Jewish Christians were asking Paul “Does faith wipe out everything Judaism stands for? Does it cancel our scriptures? put an end to our customs? Declare that God is no longer working through us? (This is essentially the question used to open chapter 3) – “Absolutely not” says Paul. When we understand the way of salvation through faith, we understand the Jewish religion better. We know why Abraham was chosen, why the law was given, why God worked patiently with Israel, for centuries. Faith does not wipe out the Old Testament. Rather, it makes God’s dealings with the Jewish people understandable. In Romans 4, Paul will expand on this theme. (Also refer to Romans 5: 20,21 – Romans 8: 3,4 – Romans 13: 9, 10 – Galatians 3: 24-29 and 1 Timothy 1:8 for more on this concept).

Mark 14: Verses 17 – 26

When evening came, Jesus arrived with the Twelve. While they were reclining at the table eating he said “I tell you the truth, one of you will betray me – one who is eating with me” They were saddened, and one by one said to him “Surely not I?”

“It is one of the Twelve” he replied. “one who dips bread into the bowl with me. The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him. But woe to that man who betrays the Son of Man! It would be better for him if he had not been born.”

While they were eating, Jesus took the bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to his disciples, saying “Take it, this is my body” Then he took the cup, gave thanks and offered it to them saying “This is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many,” he said to them “I tell you the truth, I will not drink again of the fruit of the vine until that day when I drink it anew in the kingdom of God.” When they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.

FOOTNOTES: Mark 14: 19 – Judas, the very man who would betray Jesus, was at the table with the others. Judas had already determined to betray Jesus, but in cold-blooded hypocrisy he shared the fellowship of this meal. It is easy to become enraged or shocked by what Judas did; yet professing commitment to Christ and then denying him with one’s life is also betraying him. It is denying Christ’s love to disobey him; it is denying his truth to distrust him; it is denying his deity to reject his authority. Do your words and actions match? If not, consider a change of mind and heart that will protect you from making a terrible mistake.

FOOTNOTES: Mark 14:20 – It was often the practice to eat from a common bowl. Meat or bread was dipped into a bowl filled with sauce often made with fruit.

FOOTNOTES: Mark 14: 22-25 – Mark records the origin of the Lord’s supper; also called Communion or Eucharist (thanksgiving) which is still celebrated in worship services today. Jesus and his disciples ate a meal, sang Psalms, read Scripture, and prayed. Then Jesus took two traditional parts of the Passover meal, the passing of bread and the drinking of wine, and gave them new meaning as representations of his body and blood. He used the bread and wine to explain the significance of what he was about to do on the cross. (1 Corinthians 11:23-29 says more about the significance of the last supper).

Jesus offered himself, the spotless Lamb of God, as a sacrifice that would forgive sin once, and for all. Jesus was the final sacrifice for sins, and his blood sealed the new agreement between God and us. Now all of us can come to God through Jesus, in full confidence that God will hear us and save us from our sins.

FOOTNOTES: Mark 14:24 – Jesus’ death on the cross seals the new covenant between God and people. The old covenant involves forgiveness of sins through the blood of an animal sacrifice. (Exodus 24:6-8) But instead of a spotless lamb on the altar, Jesus offered himself, the spotless Lamb of God, as a sacrifice that would forgive sin once, and for all. Jesus was the final sacrifice for sins, and his blood sealed the new agreement between God and us. Now all of us can come to God through Jesus, in full confidence that God will hear us and save us from our sins.

FOOTNOTES: Mark 14:26 – The hymn they sang was most likely taken from the Psalms 115-118, traditionally sung at the Passover meal.

John 13: Verses 21-30 – Jesus and his disciples have the Last Supper.

After he had said this, Jesus was troubled in Spirit, and testified, “I tell you the truth, one of you is going to betray me.” His disciples stared at one another, at a loss to know which of them he meant.

One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him. Simon Peter motioned to this disciple and said “Ask him which one he means.” Leaning back against Jesus he asked him “Lord, who is it?”

Jesus answered “It is the one to whom I will give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish.” Then, dipping the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas Iscariot, son of Simon. As soon as Judas took the bread, Satan entered into him. “What you are about to do, do quickly” Jesus told him.

Since Judas had charge of the money, some thought Jesus was telling him to buy what was needed for the Feast, or to give something to the poor. As soon as Judas had taken the bread, he went out. And it was night.

FOOTNOTES: John 13:22 – Judas was not the obvious betrayer; after all, he was the one the disciples trusted to keep the money (John 12:6 and John 13:29).

FOOTNOTES: John 13:27 – satan’s part in the betrayal of Jesus does not remove any of the responsibility from Judas. Disillusioned because Jesus was talking about dying rather than setting up his kingdom. Judas may have been trying to force Jesus’ hand and make him use his power to prove he was the Messiah. Or perhaps Judas, not understanding Jesus’ mission, no longer believed Jesus was God’s chosen one. Whatever Judas thought, satan assumed that Jesus’ death would end his mission and thwart God’s plan. Like Judas, satan did not know that Jesus’ death was the most important part of God’s plan all along.

FOOTNOTES: John 13:27-28 – John describes these few moments in clear detail. We can see that Jesus knew exactly what was going to happen. He knew about Judas and about Peter, he did not change the situation, nor did he stop loving them.

Now we are to love others based on Jesus’ sacrificial love for us. Such love will not only bring unbelievers to Christ, it will also keep believers strong and united in a world hostile to God. Jesus was a living example of God’s love as we are to be living examples of Jesus’ love.

God loves a cheerful giver!

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Baptised as an adult? Why?

We’ve all been there… when you come to one of those really mind blowing and life changing experiences on our own unique journeys in life. For me personally one of those times was when I took the decision to get baptised as an adult on November 21st 2021. Trust and believe! This is a big decision/moment on your journey in life when you’re an adult! I was christened as a baby, but it took me 19 years of encountering a shedload of ‘coincidences’ before I took the step to get baptised.

I kinda felt that being ‘made a Christian’ (back in September 1973) was not my choice, and therefore decided not to baptise/christen my kids for that exact reason. I used to hate it when I had to wear a dress and go to Sunday School and church as a kid, I ran away several times! Just ask my mum 🤣 I preferred the countryside freedom, the open space and definitely the muddiness of the fields and climbing of trees on a Sunday to all that boring stuff 🤣 so taking the decision to do this was, for me personally, not just because Jesus taught us to do it, but because it was a very powerful closure to a lot of stuff… mentally, spiritually and physically.

After praying to God, thinking, pondering and asking people a lot of questions I suppose I was still was not really ready or convinced for some reason that this was for me? Or even a good idea to pursue.

I definitely often forgot about Jesus and what had previously happened during life’s everyday distractions. I suppose you could say I was drawing a definitive line in a very public way. If people didn’t know I had Jesus in my life for 19 years before that moment they certainly did now because why would I do that?

Baptism in public to me was a visual declaration to demonstrate that after years of trying anything and everything to find some kind of peace in the chaos of living, it was the moment of closure in the pathways of alcohol drugs and sex etc when I had zero self awareness or care for myself. I was doing my utmost to block out, cope with, destruct and destroy myself due to the fact that I either didn’t fit boxes, fit in, or feel like I belonged here. I had finally come to the realisation and conclusion that the only way for me personally was, and still is, Jesus. He was the missing piece in the centre of it all. It definitely planted a seed of thought and a questions in those I knew, who didn’t know or even care about Jesus, because they told me personally after.

After being baptised I felt I could then go on and share, with confidence, my personal experience through stories of what I had tried and tested, and how he changed my life. This, in some ways, helped others to understand why I had kept banging on about this Jesus bloke all of a sudden.

It felt a little scary to do this, I faced jokes and ridicule for sure, but trust me! You are not alone in thinking or feeling this. However just from me you, I can pretty much guarantee that you are not going to regret that decision for one minute if you decide, without pressure, this pathway too ❤️🙏 Just have a conversation with anyone else that has done the same and make up your own mind.

I actually wore my Sanctuary International (Pastor Bob Beeman’s ministry) T-Shirt when I got baptised 🙌🏻🤣🤣 We had a birthing pool to do the baptisms in (oh the irony 🤣) in the centre of the West Wilts Vineyard church sanctuary and 7 of us got dunked that day! I will never forget how much everyone laughed when Jason Whiley (Pastor) introduced me and said “she’s never gonna do this in 3 minutes” when I had to give a brief testimony (my story and reason for getting baptised) as part of the service 🤣🤣 Anyone that knows me will totally get that joke and he was right! Because giving your personal testimony (your story) is so powerful it is never ending. God uses us all in our own unique, quirky, individual, sometimes foul mouthed personal ways to get a point or message across! You cannot get it wrong if you tell your story, as long as you tell the truth and can back it up your claims (if needed) with evidence.

Only a fool would 100% trust one person and everything they teach because things can be easily corrupted by external factors especially when money and sex are involved

I love the use of the slogan raised to life! Some Christians actually detest the Elevation Church that I heard that message from (It’s the sentence used to refer to the baptisms that they do) And for those that don’t agree with the teaching of the Pastor (Steven Furtick) at that particular church (here’s an example) that’s their opinion, which they are perfectly entitled to. The fact is that this was just one of the multiple ways God delivered my personally tailored teaching about the bible and Jesus, this was my personal experience. You cannot deny the amazing work they are doing to bring Jesus into people’s lives when you see examples like this… 589 people baptised in one weekend

To me it seems like they are just doing their best, in their own way, to share the good news and are successfully bringing Jesus into people’s lives. There are thousands of people who like the message, worship and teaching they get every week, to get to know Jesus. I’ve not heard anything personally in the teaching that has offended me. In fact I think it will be a good idea to share some of the notes I took when listening to demonstrate what I actually learned and had to read and think about in some later blog posts.

God used Elevation Church, and multiple different resources, to teach me a lot, and especially through their Elevation Worship music. If God wants to tell you something he will, by all means necessary, that’s what our personal experience and existence does! Check out Luke 19 when Jesus spoke about stones, and not forgetting Numbers 22:21-39 where he used a donkey to speak.

All of us learn from good people if we are lucky, but some don’t have that luxury! We must always be mindful of that. So you must hear different points of view, not only from multiple people, but when it comes to understanding faith, different churches and different bible translations compared, to understand what is right, this is called discernment. Only a fool would 100% trust one person and everything they teach because things can easily be corrupted by external factors especially when money and sex are involved.

Never let anyone tell you what your personal relationship with God is, or should be. It is ESSENTIAL to educate yourself, ask a lot of questions, listen without prejudice, speak to different people, look up the verses related in the bible and decide for yourself what is right for you. Rituals, religion and the love of money are just all man made, and cause more conflict, pain, injustice, suffering and arguments than anything else! From what I’ve seen and experienced all these things actually drive people away from the things that are the most important to us all.

If the motive or outcome is not based on love, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self control then it just seems to be a method or tactic that anyone evil uses for their own personal gain, control, power, ego and self satisfaction or intent. When you dig deep, it is more often than not about themselves, and what they want and not you at all. You are a commodity, a number, something to be used until no longer useful and then cast aside and replaced.

If you do decide to get baptised just have a wonderful day celebrating freedom and please don’t feel disappointed if you don’t get a mind blowing God encounter when you actually get baptised. For a lot of people I have spoken to it is natural, and they don’t experience that until days, months or even years later..

Put all the BS aside, do your own research about Jesus. Dig deep, hear conflicting opinions about who he was. Was he a real person? Are there historical things to back up this reason for you saying this? Compare and contrast what you find but don’t let anyone else do this for you. Your mind has to work it out logically and practically.

Decide for yourself what he did and how he lived. If you like it, then take his example of how to live like you would a mentor. And act on it. Be an apprentice! Learn from mistakes but NEVER stop learning! And be sure to protect any history surrounding what you find, so that you can show someone else in the future what you have learned.

Take notes, buy books, read, listen, talk to people and have group discussions over a pint or a coffee. Whatever works for you. But don’t let anyone tell you that you are wrong for looking into this, because if they do, then you are not free and something is not right, and you have to ask yourself why is that?


Here’s some of my personal historical evidence!

If you are interested – here are my notes to prompt my actual testimony at my baptism. This was a relevant part of my conversation in Facebook Messenger with Ung-Kel Huud (who I mention in my testimony)

And getting to heaven, it’s simple. Man has made it difficult with religion and rules.

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Jesus said I am the way the truth and the life, and no one comes to the Father except through me

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Once you understand that verse, and understand that Jesus is the key, the rest of the bible will make total sense.

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and the reason Jesus came was to show us how to live and deal with things. The books in the bible recorded what he did and how he reacted when up against different situations.

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I truly believe that Jesus was God in human form. When he died and rose again the power of the Holy Spirit came into being. Hence the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. 3 in one

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So when we accept Jesus, turn from our old ways, into our hearts, into our world, and truly believe him for who he said he was, then we are gifted with the power of the Holy Spirit.

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I sound totally nuts, but please believe me, I have seen and experienced some real world miracles since 2000

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I believe that the moment we take that decision, when Jesus comes into our lives, and we have a direct relationship with the Father God himself. When we pray in Jesus name, he hears and sees us, because we are washed clean by Jesus, and the Holy Spirit speaks on our behalf.

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Then we start our journey into eternal life here, on earth.

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I believe the bible is the truth, I believe the promises and the teaching in the bible, I made that decision back in 2000, and have lived a life this way for 21 years. What God has shown me is the life is not easy, in fact it’s harder the more darker the world gets

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So what the baptism today is about is my 100% declaration to God that I am for him, and am totally submitted to his will for my life. That’s why it has taken so long to do

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I’ve been on and off this guidance during the 21 years

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but he has proved to me, through personal experiences and circumstances, that he is with me through all things, even if it didn’t make sense at the time.

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And thank you Lord! You have just used this to help me write my testimony for today ❤

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Hallelujah! God is just amazing!

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Before 2000 I tried all different ways to find happiness, after a traumatic event when I was 10

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Drugs, alcohol, sex, chocolate, food, gym lol

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nothing else brought me true peace except Jesus.

This was the instant messages sent to my dear friend, Ung-Kel Huud who I had connected with in the United States not long before my baptism. I was struggling to find the words to write. He sent me a video link on the evening before my baptism. Not only did this help prompt my testimony, but he also attended the baptism online in the very early hours of the morning, 4:30am if I remember correctly! Here’s the video he sent the link to…


Here’s my actual testimony which was recorded live on the day (the importance of online church is something I will cover on another day) at my baptism (November 21st || Baptisms) – Via West Wilts Vineyard website on YouTube.


Here’s when I got dunked!


I’ll end it here for today

Hope you enjoyed reading this blog post. I know it’s been ages since I wrote one! This is my opinion based on personal experience. In the words of a dear old friend Royston that stuck with me “that’s just my opinion, others are available”

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Jesus is the only way to heaven

Sending love, hugs and blessings from the UK to all the body of Christ all over the world. Stand strong, keep sharing, standing shoulder to shoulder, encouraging each other in prayer in Jesus name. I am sending love and encouragement to you all as we move forwards in spiritual battle as a part of heaven’s army, marching for Jesus, declaring the good news of the Gospel and songs of love and worship towards Him for his glory and elevation.

I don’t know about you, but I am tired, as discussed recently in the Elevation Church worship service conducted by Pastor Steven Furtick. It literally has been the worst month for being productive in any way, shape or form! It has been one of those months when everything I have tried to do has gone wrong, everyone is struggling, the system that are supposed to support us are failing dismally, and I’m just downright tired and had enough.

But even though I am tired, I am still thankful for God’s grace, his unconditional love, and the support and love experienced through a personal relationship with God. I am thankful that I can bring every single problem and complaint to him, and leave it all at the cross.

Some ‘religions’ have made it seem like a huge checklist of do’s and don’ts, and this simply is not the case, and frustrates me. All we need to do is come to him, admit we have ignored him, admit that we have messed up, and then turn from our old ways to the ways God intended us to live in the first place, through acceptance of his only Son, dying for all of us, on that cross at Calvary. Then invite Jesus into our hearts and our lives and step forward into every new day, but never alone ever again. That’s powerful stuff right?

Every single sin, past, present and future was paid for by Jesus Christ shedding his blood and dying for us. Wow, pretty impressive isn’t it that he loves us so much, every single one of us! I stand in awe and am amazed at the blessings every single day, for every single miracle, for every single feeling of love and support from all over the world when I put out a prayer request on my Facebook page. Just phenominal! Mind blowing!

And all it takes is a simple prayer. You can google it, but to save you time, here is a version I found that I quite like.

“Lord Jesus Christ, I am sorry for the things I have done wrong in my life. I ask your forgiveness and now turn from everything which I know is wrong. Thank you for dying on the cross for me to set me free from my sins. Please come into my life and fill me with your Holy Spirit and be with me forever. Thank you Lord Jesus Amen.”

The Billy Graham Evangalistic Association – © 2020 Billy Graham Evangelistic Association UK

If you are not ‘born again’ please take a few moments to read this for yourself. The scripture is taken from the New International Version of the Holy Bible, the book of truth from God. This is what Jesus had to say on the subject of going to heaven.

John 14 – New International Version

Jesus Comforts His Disciples

14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God[a]; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”

Jesus the Way to the Father

Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?”

Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know[b] my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”

Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.”

Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? 10 Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. 11 Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. 12 Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. 13 And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.

Jesus Promises the Holy Spirit

15 “If you love me, keep my commands. 16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you. 18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19 Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20 On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21 Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”

22 Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, “But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?”

23 Jesus replied, “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them. 24 Anyone who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.

25 “All this I have spoken while still with you. 26 But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

28 “You heard me say, ‘I am going away and I am coming back to you.’ If you loved me, you would be glad that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I. 29 I have told you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe. 30 I will not say much more to you, for the prince of this world is coming. He has no hold over me, 31 but he comes so that the world may learn that I love the Father and do exactly what my Father has commanded me.

“Come now; let us leave.

Footnotes

  1. John 14:1 Or Believe in God
  2. John 14:7 Some manuscripts If you really knew me, you would know
  3. John 14:17 Some early manuscripts and is

Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.® Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.

God is in control

On a daily basis I am reminded that God is in control, and it’s my job to serve him. I have listened carefully and find myself changing from the inside out as a result. I consider it pure joy every time I have been accused of things, been called names and generally been moaned at for doing one thing or another. I have a feeling that something good is about to happen.

Generally the main prayer has been for good health of all family and friends and Christians all over the world. Specifically closer to home, and maybe a little selfish, but pressing into prayer to lift the flight ban between Africa and the UK, so that our families can really begin to get to know each other.

George released a new music video yesterday evening, and I am so proud and happy to see this, and so are the kids. You can find it at https://youtu.be/Uc3gfvLUuW8 – Please Like, Subscribe and Share. Let’s take this all around the world! In Jesus name I pray for success. Amen!

This is Gospel from Devine Voices from Ghana, Africa. Enjoy x

Divine Voices – Gospel from Ghana, Africa

Numbers 6:22-27

The priestly blessing

22 The Lord said to Moses, 23 ‘Tell Aaron and his sons, “This is how you are to bless the Israelites. Say to them:

24 ‘“‘The Lord bless you
    and keep you;
25 the Lord make his face shine on you
    and be gracious to you;
26 the Lord turn his face towards you
    and give you peace.’”

27 ‘So they will put my name on the Israelites, and I will bless them.’

Bible Study from Monday 22nd June 2020

I wanted to share this to confirm that I do spend time with God, it’s not just all copy and paste scripture. What I have discovered is the more time I spend with him, listening to what he has to say in the teachings, the more he blesses me.

Recently I have felt very tired and abandoned. I have been insulted, incorrectly referred to, I have been angry and frustrated and it absolutely links back to the total amount of time I spend in his presence. The more I study, read and listen to, the more my problems and prayers are answered.

On several occasions this month, I have found myself angry at God for saving me when I took the overdose back in 2000. I cried out to God and asked why he bothered to save me, I was having a terrible day. My answer came I discovered today through a sermon in the very early hours of the morning. He didn’t save me personally, what he did was save my parents from the grief. Powerful response, within 24 hours of my request. Wow!

Our God is truly amazing, and loves us all very much. God bless you all and thank you for reading, in Jesus name I pray. Amen.

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God said Go! So I did!

“Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me! I once was lost but now I’m found, was blind but now I see!

John Newton

It is by the grace of God that I am writing this today, and quite possibly the reason why you have been drawn into reading it. It is through Him I can do all things, and all praise goes to him regarding this work.

I am feeling strongly driven to share my experiences with you through this blog, so that his glory will shine through and you will learn how different life is when you re-establish your relationship with God, through our Lord Jesus Christ.

In the future posts, I will share with you my life experience, the good, the bad and the downright ugly. You may not like me very much when I share with such honesty, but I have been reminded that my life with Christ requires me to be humble, love the Lord with all my heart, and to help the most poor and needy. And I feel that by sharing my experience honestly may help others who have found themselves in similar situations and don’t know where to turn or what to do.

What do you mean God said Go!?

Yes, it may seem a bit strange or weird to make such a bold statement, but trust me, I’m learning to listen to God on a daily basis. When I see a pattern of advice or repetition of something that would bring praise to God, then I know that I need to act on it. I’m not boasting, as any other ‘born again’ Christians will confirm, sometimes it is impossible to miss when He’s trying to tell us something.

The signs to start writing began last year, when a very old friend told me “I think you should write a blog”. I agreed it would be a good idea, but life got in the way, and the motivation and drive to do it fizzled out, until a few weeks later.

“You are a really good communicator, you should write a blog, it would be great”, to which I replied “Yes, my old friend told me that a few weeks ago. I really must get around to setting one up”. Then life got in the way.

I had heard several things on the radio, in conversation, and on TV, about sharing your experience with others to help them, this began to feel a bit weird, to say the least. But yes, you’ve guessed it, life got in the way.

And last week, when I was on holiday, there I was, starting my day in the sunshine with a lovely cup of coffee, reading my UCB Word for Today, scripture for the day, praying and taking notes in the garden, and there it was, in black and white “Get some rest”. I laughed out loud, and showed my friend, who had very kindly agreed to allow us to stay with her for a break away from home.

The following days word and reading were related to working out what God wants me to do, and I took notes to record my findings of what I thought I should and could be doing for God’s purpose. I continued my study during my time away.

Later I was talking to my friend, and the conversation came up about how I didn’t feel as if I was doing what God intended me to do with my life. I told her about a few ideas I had, and I was clearly told to just pick one, and run with it. So here we are. My first official blog.

Upon reflection I can clearly see that this is just one example of God was working through people to get this work started. I have so much to share with you, and I look forward to doing that over the following posts. Some may say this is simply coincidence, but I have said that so many times over the last 19 years, and nowadays I don’t doubt it being anything but from God.

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Who am I?

I am not worthy

I’m no one special, I often swear out loud when I know I shouldn’t. I’ve had a pretty shady past compared to the ‘average person’, I work hard, I’ve got a couple of kids, I’ve had a fairly good education, I am an ex-addict to lots of things from obsessive TV to excessive gym and a kaleidoscope of recreational drugs. I’m prone to bouts of depression and self-hatred, I’ve been violent and experienced violence, survived two suicide attempts and I battle cravings for junk food on a regular basis.

I have always written a lot, but not online, so I thought I would start to share my findings in the public domain to encourage and help others. If I can change one person’s life – the time doing this will not have been wasted, even if it’s just to make them smile or laugh for a few minutes.

I thank God every day for everything he does for me, and can clearly see just how much better life is with Jesus at my side, and the blessings of some wonderful family and friends.

I have been saved by God’s grace

One day, back in 2000, I had a life changing experience as my sister read to me from the bible. It was like a ‘wake up and smell the coffee’ moment, a blindingly obvious statement that changed the way I saw faith, God and Jesus.

My sister was always very good at putting things in the bible in a way that could easily be understood, she made me laugh when I was deeply depressed, and on that day I went from wanting nothing to do with faith to not being able to get enough of it!

She explained to me that the way to heaven was through Jesus Christ. It is written in the scripture in the New Testament in John 14:6

“Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me”.

And it didn’t matter what you had done in the past, your sins have already been paid for by his crucifixion and resurrection, he loves you and wants you to turn from your ways and live in his way, as God intended.

She explained that Jesus was special, he lived a faultless, caring and loving life here on earth and for that got killed in his 30s! Jesus was God in human form so that when we speak to him he understands what it’s like to be human, I thought there must be something in that. My curiosity increased the more I read.

All I had to do was to say a simple prayer, turning away from my old life and ways, inviting him into my life, into my heart, and hand over all my sin to him in prayer in his name. Then take up my cross and follow him. So I did.

After praying the prayer, I could not believe just how much I could understand when reading the bible. It all made complete sense! The grass was greener and I felt a huge feeling of peace and joy.

I could not believe how much of a difference it has made in my life having the ability to pray in Jesus’ name, having a personal relationship, and the influence and things that would happen as a result. All because of God’s wonderful grace.

I want to share this with you

During a sermon last week I heard “By sharing our testimony we strengthen our faith” which has driven me to start this.

I have decided to take the step to blog publicly, taking examples from my personal journal because I feel as if what I have experienced so far in this life could also help others who are going through similar circumstances. I stand in absolute awe some days at the things that happen and I want you to know about them too.

Don’t get me wrong, life is still hard, being born again does not instantly change things to be faultless, stress-free and perfect, and you’ll see that as you begin to read the blogs.

Unfortunately there are so many misunderstandings and presumptions of what being a Christian is, and more importantly what it is not, so I want to give you my point of view to break down the barriers that prevent communication, and stop the misconceptions about what people think going to church is.

I’m not really sure what the content of this blog will be until I start writing, but here are the sort of things this blog will contain:

  • Real life stories of what has happened in my past life.
  • My personal relationship with God.
  • What it’s like to walk with Jesus.
  • Real life stories relating to living life as a born again Christian.
  • Things that have happened since using prayer and worship regularly. God’s blessings and examples of proof that prayer works!
  • How I have applied what I have learned from scripture in my life.
  • What I have been learning about this week.
  • Other people’s testimonies I have heard.
  • I would love to connect with believers and unbelievers via my blog.
  • I would also love to connect to people who would like to hear more about my faith, and how to start their own journey with Christ.

I look forward to sharing my blog with you.

Did God say STOP!?

2020…..

Has God stopped everything to allow the planet to recover?

Why does God get blamed for things that are not his fault?

All praise to the Lord our God, thank you for the blessing of this message today, and for the tools and ability to take the message from prayer to thoughts, to paper, to here for the public domain to read. You are a truly amazing God and I thank you every single day for the joy, peace and motivation you bring to share your Good News! I pray in Jesus’ precious name. Amen x

Let us share our ‘fragrance of God’s grace’ far and wide.

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What do you do?

I visited several churches over time, you will know which one is right for you when you are there. Sometimes you are at a church for a season, because that’s where God wants you to be at that specific point in time. The community of people, worship and how you feel… pray on this before you go.

I attend in house church when I can, but if I can’t, I also have ‘go-to’ online churches all over the planet too. My in house church home has a YouTube livestream where you can watch back previous sermons, but also podcasts on Spotify for the teaching moments. If this is something important to you, then ask when you attend what they have.

It was highlighted massively when I was working on the media team in the church via the feedback from the neurospicy brothers and sisters there are days when sometimes they just cannot be in the building, I don’t ask why, but all I know is that I fed back that important information to the church.

I’m fully of the belief that if God needs you to hear something, it will come, no matter where from (remember he used a donkey in the bible). Sadly there are some that don’t see or accept this because they are either no ‘neurospicy’ or see it as an inferior connection with God because it’s on a screen. I don’t let that get to me, because ultimately this is the pathway God has taken me on personally, and it’s between us. Sad but true, if you are like me and believe that God is with us in all things, it’s perfectly acceptable to worship at home in the same way you worship in the building. Especially if you are having a bad day and cannot cope with being around other people, who will distract you from that beautiful one to one time with Jesus.

I also make use of UCB Word for Today (available in print and online) which I have been reading daily (well most days because I’m not perfect, none of us are) for the last 24 years. Some days I just take the message as it is, but some days I dig deeper into the verse that it’s pointing to with my study bible. Totally depends on the time available. I also listen to audio bible apps like Bible.is, Abide (Christian Meditation), Angel Studios, YouVersion Bible etc.

Just like your relationship with Jesus, it’s personal, and personally tailored to you on your personal journey. We are all parts of the body of Christ, with different personalities, skills and compassion. What works for someone may not be what works for someone else…

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That’s The Way Love Is…

“Two people make their vow to be together, and live and love each other forever, they promise to love for a lifetime, funny thing… then they change their mind….” — Ten City, That’s The Way Love Is

These are the lyrics that inspired me today. Not just to honestly open up and write to a dear friend, but to also get to work on the kaleidoscope of activity that came off the back of the song popping into my head this morning.

Honesty is the best policy…. always

I got married to a guy who I was with from the age of 17, we lived together for 9 years. Firstly at his parents, then eventually into our own place. I didn’t even think about marriage, and nor did he, but society and peer pressure dictated that this is what you do. We were quite happy living together, we both had good jobs and no debt apart from the mortgage on the house we lived in. There was always alcohol but that’s what we do at the weekend here, it’s part of the culture.

He proposed to me when we were on holiday in Magaluf, we were drinking a lot and on holiday with friends. I agreed because it was the thing we are supposed to do. We got married in St Lucia. After we got married things changed, he changed. I was working in my uncle’s club behind the bar on weekends, he had total free reign to do as he pleased, there was a nightclub in the other part of the building that I was working in. I had total trust that he wouldn’t cheat on me, but he didn’t the other way. He constantly accused me of sleeping with someone else, which I wasn’t. At the time, I was working full time in my day job and weekends in the club. It was a snooker hall and family club by the way just to put things into context.

My Nan and Grandad were landlord and landlady at a small village pub when I was a kid, and families would gather there, all the parents in the pub but kids were not allowed, so would all assemble in the pub garden. There were two brothers that were regularly there, called Ryan and Nigel. My sister and I became friends with them both. So you can imagine my joy when one if them turned up at the club I was working at after not seeing him for about 10 years! It was like seeing an old family member as I am sure you can appreciate.

I bounded across the room and gave him the biggest hug! So happy to see him. Within a few seconds of doing this my ex husband had him by the throat against the wall. As you can imagine this pissed me off, I lost my shit. We ended up arguing, fighting, and I think it was at that point the rose tinted glasses of my marriage got shattered.

Self-medication and coping mechanisms

We started smoking weed, I left my job at the club, I gave up smoking and all this time we were trying to have a child which never happened. Every month I didn’t fall pregnant there was always a blow out of self medication resulting in more arguments, fighting, like proper fighting, and days of silent treatment.

He continued to accuse me of cheating on him, became massively controlling over money, I got promoted in my jobs, we had a joint account we paid 50 percent each into to cover all house costs and bills. We both had a reasonable amount left over to buy pretty much anything we wanted. Then one day, the depression kicked in…. I completely shut down. The doctor suggested that I try taking Prozac to help. This was my first antidepressant meds.

At first, they really did help, I got back into a more positive state of mind. This was when I stepped up in my 8 ball participation seriously. I played in 3 local town league teams and for Wiltshire county.

As you know, alcohol and drugs are not a good combination, so when I started drinking again this is where my problems began. My ex accused me of sleeping with someone in the pool team. Which I didn’t, I was more interested in my performance and success in the game. Don’t get me wrong, there was always banter, that’s who I am, but I was always faithful.

When I was promoted to a management role in my job the doctor and I decided that we could now look at stopping the meds. The arguments and literal fist fights when we were drinking followed by regular passionate make up sex continued at home. The sex was amazing, but the fights made it less appealing. So I avoided spending more time there.

We had a works night out in my home town, my ex husband came of course, a large number of the management team came along, the recreational drugs and alcohol was involved. My ex husband started a fight and argument on the night out, accusing me of sleeping with one of the managers from work. This was the final straw for me. Not long after I fucked someone drunk because he had accused me so much of doing it, I did! And not just anyone, it was his brother in laws brother. I was totally drunk and high at the time. Meaningless sex, angry at my ex, I didn’t feel anything for this guy.

I spent more time getting self pleasure at home from my toys than sleeping with my husband. My mental health declined again, and I ended up back on the Prozac. We had marriage counselling but the damage was already done. When I look back reflectively on what happened, with the knowledge of CPTSD, my understanding of narcissistic abusive partners, it’s a completely different picture now. And makes sense of what I did strangely.

After that, I went into a spiral of recreational drugs and alcohol to self medicate when the Prozac was stopped, I ended up in another rebound relationship, because I couldn’t cope with being alone.

I got involved in some real seedy shit, multiple partner sex, girl on girl, videoed having sex. Smoking weed to go to sleep, speed to go to work and pills on the weekends to party, followed by all day drinking on Sundays at the pub, and we were taking whatever was confiscated in the club because my ex was a doorman.

We got engaged, got a house, I was totally dis-regulated and disassociated from myself. He was, and still is a player. Years later it all came out from other people what he was doing behind my back, all of which he denied of course.

Millennium new year, I asked him to please not work, because I wanted to go to London to see in the special new year. He agreed, but on the day before he announced that he was working at a club in Bath. This set me off, I was totally angry, so I ended up taking 6 Es, dancing and kissing a girl in the club, all for his, and everyone else’s entertainment. We ended up taking another couple home and had a party. Loads of drugs and alcohol, multiple partner sex, and I had driven us home! I don’t know how! God definitely had his hand on me that day.

I was so high I was convinced that there was a gremlin on the end of my sofa and that Madonna was in my kitchen 😂 This quite obviously was when I began to totally lose touch with reality.

Not long after I was home alone, he was working at the club, I needed to speak to him on the phone. He totally ghosted my calls.

A real “I woke up and smelled the coffee” or that ding you hear when the light bulb moment happens in your brain.

Unsung hero – http://www.notworthysavedbygodsgrace.com

So I went to a couple of stores and got myself 120 paracetamol, a bottle of wine and a bunch of bananas. I had decided that my life was pointless, no matter how hard I tried to just be normal and have a nice life, it just wasn’t going to happen.

It was a funny day, and the most peaceful I had ever felt in my entire life. I calmly lined up the paracetamol, along my beautiful coffee table. I ate a banana to ensure there was something in my stomach to line it, and systematically, one by one, consumed the pills…

I then sat back in the comfy chair and began playing who wants to be a millionaire game on the PlayStation, and continued to drink the wine. Distracting myself and drinking myself into oblivion while nature took its course.

I was falling, uncontrollably, into a very dark and wide chasm. Free-falling, total peace at last.

Then I felt something grab me from behind. You know, like when a kid runs into the road and you grab and yank them back. I woke up face down but pushed myself upright from the bed I was in. Real bolt upright fast, arms locked like in a press-up position. This bed was in Bath Royal United Hospital. This made me very angry because I just wanted to leave. I had written a suicide note to ensure it was clear to everyone that it was not their fault, there was nothing anyone could do to make me want to be here, no amount if money or love would make a difference to the fact that I was done.

Looking back in this now, I am convinced and identify that this is when Jesus stepped in, because not long after I was at my sisters house and she was telling me about why she was a Christian, which I was totally dismissive of and was calling her out on her bullshit for believing it. Then one day, during one of these conversations, she said something which hit me, literally, with fire and awakening. I now understand this as the Holy Spirit baptism of fire. Like Pentecost.

From that point in, I could see the world differently. Everything made sense, I could see and appreciate the beauty of God’s creation. What was totally weird was the bible actually made sense. It was simple to me that it was all about Jesus. From predictions of prophets of his coming, to his teaching when he was here, why he was killed, and where he is now.

A real “I woke up and smelled the coffee” or that ding you hear when the light bulb moment happens in your brain.

I truly believe that Jesus saved my life and for a reason, and I still don’t know what that reason is. I’m not perfect, I don’t think I’m anyone special, I understand how shit life is and badly people treat each other. But on the other hand I also see so much love and beauty in the world. God has revealed things over the years, through various things, people and teaching. Like a fast track crash course in what he was trying to tell us while he was teaching when he was alive and walking the earth.

My love is genuine but so too is my pain. I fucking hate this world and the bullshit that goes on. I have still continued to fuck up myself. Despite what happened.

What I do understand is that I pray to God in Jesus’ name to help me to understand what my assignment is today. I never know what’s coming, who will arrive, who I will be messaging, who I will be speaking to, and what work I need to do. I just trust the process, and do the best version of myself today (and honestly when it’s a shit day, no masks) Aiming to be the best at what I do in whatever is required. I see it that my job title is an apprentice of Jesus and a humble servant.

The only man I trust now is Jesus…

It’s a lie! And they know it! No one knows the date or time!

DO NOT believe anyone that tells you an EXACT date of the return of Jesus because NO ONE KNOWS!

They are not special, they are not blessed, and they are not Jesus. Snake oil salesmen and women springs to mind. From what I see it’s for their personal glory and attention, for personal gain and usually driven by money through donations to their cause.

I’m no expert, but here’s what I read in the bible. It seems clear to me? Written in Matthew 13 in the verses 32 to 37.

The Day and Hour Unknown
32 “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father. 33 Be on guard! Be alert[e]! You do not know when that time will come. 34 It’s like a man going away: He leaves his house and puts his servants in charge, each with their assigned task, and tells the one at the door to keep watch.

35 “Therefore keep watch because you do not know when the owner of the house will come back—whether in the evening, or at midnight, or when the rooster crows, or at dawn. 36 If he comes suddenly, do not let him find you sleeping. 37 What I say to you, I say to everyone: ‘Watch!’”

So if someone tries to tell you this kind of information, smile politely and walk away from them. They’ll work it out for themselves when no one wants to buy their product.

VOTE WITH YOUR FEET! WALK AWAY!

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It’s important to read the full verse in context!

Monday 5th May 2024.

#globalfamilysupport
WORD…
9 “You must be on your guard. You will be handed over to the local councils and flogged in the synagogues. On account of me you will stand before governors and kings as witnesses to them. 10 And the gospel must first be preached to all nations. 11 Whenever you are arrested and brought to trial, do not worry beforehand about what to say. Just say whatever is given you at the time, for it is not you speaking, but the Holy Spirit.

Mark 13: 9-11

When reading God’s word it is ALWAYS important to read and understand the WHOLE verse. Sometimes God draws your attention to the full verse using a part of it (in my experience) so it needs to be in full context and you may miss an important message in that full verse that you need to read.

Think of it like using a piece of equipment that is complexed without reading the full instruction manual before using the device. Yes, we all know someone who ain’t got time to read the instructions, will just work it out 😂, or walks straight into a record deal without reading or understanding the contract fully.

PLEASE don’t just cherrypick verses to suit your selfish and self centred needs, and definitely “DO NOT use the bible as a weapon to hurt others” (to quote Pastor Bob Beeman in one of his coffee breaks recently) because the enemy knows the bible too (and better than any of us so don’t be fooled!) and often operates like this.

There are several examples in history where the bible and man made religion was used to control, steal, destroy and kill people. And don’t think it was just things that happened in history. This practice continues to this day, you only have to look closely at some of the ‘religions’ that use their label to claim stuff that doesn’t belong to them, but claim that God said it’s theirs.

Watch out for those man made religions for sure! if Jesus and love is not at the front and centre of all the teaching, then start to ask yourself why. If the instructions and teaching tells you that it’s acceptable to kill someone, you need to walk away and don’t stop, and don’t look back. Voting with your feet is the way you destroy a business that has dubious business practices, the same applies to man made religion.

Hey I’m no expert trust me, only God knows. This is just my opinion based on walking with Jesus for 24 years, asking questions, and challenging everything. Until I’m straight in my mind I don’t believe it to be 100% true until I’ve done that, only a fool would believe everything that one person says, without asking others and doing research. That’s how cults work by the way. You can be manipulated and brain washed if you are continually told the same thing over and over. It’s also a tool in the narcissists toolbox.

So, PLEASE when you get a verse quoted, check it against the full verse, in full context or you may miss an important message in the full verse that you need to read.

Therefore recommend you read the full verse Mark 13 today

Have a wonderful day!! Peace love and blessings to you wherever you are in the world.

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ps, if you’re like me, and don’t have time to sit and read, there are some great bible apps and videos on youtube that you can listen to while doing other things. But take note, multitasking does not work! In some menial things you can do it, but if it’s something that requires full attention you need to pay it that. Switch tasking in your brain…. Google it.

So I recommend getting a cuppa, turning off the screens (unless you are watching it on youtube to listen) and taking the time to listen to the full verse of Matthew 13 because there’s some real important stuff in there we all need to know in the body of Christ. I close my eyes when I need to do this so that there is nothing that can distract my brain.

There’s no such thing as spiritual warfare or vaccine damage – it’s all in your mind… oh really?

If you’ve had vaccinations… Pray that you don’t get any future side effects or even worse, in Jesus name!

I asked myself the question, am I vaccine damaged?

I had 2 x AstraZeneca and 1 x Pfizer booster also had covid twice.

Declined any further vaccinations after doing extensive research online. I do not believe it is safe or effective, therefore I retain my right to refuse medication, despite the constant pestering via text message because of my high risk status (liver and kidney issues)

I’ve not been out socialising (except for Christmas and family party) since July 2023 – I couldn’t drive because of shoulder impingement after the vaccine. It was first noticeable on the night I was at my friend Rachel and Deb house playing pool, I suddenly had huge problems potting basic shots – now anyone that knows me knows I can pretty much smack in easy shots with my eyes shut, I’ve been playing at local and national level for years and got the trophies to prove it! (started playing at 3 years old actually! thanks to Lynda <3) so my alarm bells began to ring then that something wasn’t right.

I was actively volunteering at the Storehouse Food Bank Trowbridge and West Wilts Vineyard cleaning, in the cafe, and on the media team. Had to give it all up, couldn’t cope with the lack of energy and couldn’t concentrate. Often sleeping late or into early hours because my sleep was erratic and all over the place. Became totally unreliable in any way, having to sleep whenever I needed to sleep, sometimes for 12+ hours.

Top that with double/blurred vision, rollercoaster depression, weight gain, massive lethargy for no reason, no energy, unable to lift what I was easily able to do at the gym, massive brain fog, unable to think logically, at one point all over body pain and stiffness that the doctor suspected was fybromyalgia. Ck Pee and Rene Smith and Tyree Cooper can back up this statement as we were working on projects and I was having great difficulty with even basic promo required, or do basic tasks, some days I couldn’t function at all. I had to take a lot of time off because of the various things one after another, which resulted in over working to try and catch up when I was able to work.

Now have a swollen left arm (not the first time it swelled up, I can remember at least 2 x before when it happened) which was diagnosed by the doctor as suspected DVT, eliminated by scan at Bath RUH (there’s another blog post coming about that too!) earlier this week, didn’t get a call back from the doctor yesterday (I guess they tried to call my mobile when there’s no signal, and I’ve told them several times to put that on my record), so still taking the blood thinning meds until further notice, and no doctors appointment until 10th May 2024.

To put it bluntly, I ain’t 🤬🤬happy! So please be patient while I try and work through the urgent/priority/critical things I need to do.

No doubt, it will get diagnosed as either a) perimenopausal symptoms or b) all in my mind. Time will tell….

I still gotta do the appeal against £100 Bristol Airport stopping fine, but when I went in to get my medical records discovered that there are no digital records pre 2001?? and guess what, that’s the ones I need! circa 1999 (email sent, but more crap I just don’t need, hopefully they can recover the records from a backup)

There’s more 🤬🤬 but that’s the priority stuff right now… So if you pray, please remember me, I need a break man! this is exhausting!!

ps – Don’t tell me there’s no such thing as spiritual warfare, walk a mile in my shoes you’ll see it clear as day! I’m thankful that Jesus is carrying me through this, because if it wasn’t for him and my kids, I would not be here and would have given up because all this stress is a constant triggering of my mental health, and after 2 weeks off the meds I’m back on them again to ensure that does not happen! Get armoured up – speak out about things that are wrong, stop the BS, and most importantly keep shining beautiful people! “Don’t let the bastards get you down”

Twitch TV

Felt that I had to start sharing what I am doing with my twitch tv channel. It made total sense to share what I do in a day when I use my computer. This is what I thought would be a good start.

https://l.facebook.com/l.php?u=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.twitch.tv%2Fvideos%2F1139841186&h=AT1oCjtN-FZ5u6WJ8lN-9CUvkeAp6jS3qRhUz7OAo7_hgfmVaFP4YPvzzGZdBu2x9zc_aMWGF2dlNqmVAl9lrKkEDUuASeNiFOL8F8uA04iE4sED3azkPwg8fBnN4X4I3w&s=1

https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1139841186

It has been an amazing few months, I have found myself taking a complete change in direction regarding my work. I have been blessed so much. I will try to write about it soon.

Sending love hugs and blessings to the global family all around the world ❤